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Best Selling Author M. ROBINSON
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It was complicated, it was also just the beginning.
A simple choice.
There is always that one moment in life where things could have been different. That one moment where you could have chosen a path that would lead you down a certain road.
A different life.
It was easier to pretend that we were still best friends, and that she was my girl and I was her boy.
Pretending was better than knowing the truth…
I. Ruined. Us.
I had her.
I lost her.
I love her.
All I did was complicate us.
I sat down yesterday morning with my coffee and my e-reader, preparing for another day lost in an alternate reality. I turned on my kindle to discover Complicate Me had arrived. I had been anticipating this book for quite some time, I was anxious to see how well M. did with the sweet side of romance. We all know she rocked the sh*t out of the VIP Trilogy, I mean come on, those books were written to kidnap your innocence and make you want to be the MVP. (If you haven’t experienced these books – I will forgive you if you go one click now
I was in love with this book from Prologue to Ending. I couldn’t put it down. I haven’t been so lost within a story in a while. She gave us everything from a small town we all secretly love. Close knit families, young love, tragedy, and heartbreak.
I laughed out loud and sobbed just as hard. The emotions seep into your soul and hold steady with hopes that all will turn out the way it’s supposed to.
But does anything ever go exactly as planned?
In Complicate Me we are introduced to group of small town kids who’s families are so close they are raised like siblings. Jacob, Dylan, Austin, Lucas and Alexandra have a bond that will withstand the tests of time. Or so we hope. The groundwork that is laid in this book ensures the rest of this series will be just as phenomenal.
Lucas aka. “Bo” and Alexandra aka. “Alex/Half Pint” have the strongest bond in the group. With their mothers being best friends it is destined to be so. Adolescence takes control and their friendship begins to blossom into a completely different feeling. However, outside influences don’t understand or have mercy on these young hearts.
I watched in awe as Bo and Half Pint come into their own and fall victim to raging hormones and broken desires. I forgave and carried on when hope seemed to enflame only to get snuffed out again… I cussed and cried right along them.
Moving on from a life you have always known, is sometimes the most difficult thing to overcome.
They say everything happens for a reason… That we are never given more than we can handle…
Hurricanes leave tragedy in their wake…
Sometimes… Sometimes the best comes after the rebuild.
Thank you M. for the opportunity to experience the heart of The Good Ol’ Boys. I cannot wait for more!
My brown eyed girl sat on our blankets with her arms wrapped around her knees, hiding her face. The tiny frame that I adored so much shook uncontrollably, only heightening the deepest sobbing that escalated with each passing second. It was such an intimate moment, not to be shared with anyone, especially me. Alex didn’t cry. I watched her bawl for the first time in my life. I had never seen anyone cry like that before, and it shook me to my core, slicing me whole, and making me feel like I was dying. Carving a memory that I would take to my grave. There was no going back…
No do overs.
What I witnessed tonight would be my purgatory; I would now close my eyes and forever see her falling apart in front of me. Shattering before my very own eyes and I found it hard to breathe.
Hard to move.
My feet were glued to the goddamn floor as she continued to weep, sob, bawl, violently sucking in air that wasn’t available. I accepted it all; each tear that fell from her face becoming pieces of me. Circulating through my veins and blood, it flowed endlessly, a river of her sadness and sorrow and of my broken promises. No beginning or ending to her cries, just an infinite current, flooding the hole where my heart should be. The shadow of her trembling petite body reflected off the walls, leaving a trail of regrets in its wake.
Growing up in a small town you overheard a lot of things. People talking, stories told, town gossip. You listened a lot. You learned a lot. Tourists, townies, friends, and especially family all shared wisdom and advice that you think you will never need.
Bunch of bullshit. They say you have that one moment in life where
things could have been different, that one moment that changes the course of your life or the direction you could have taken. That one moment that could forever change you and everything you wanted to be true, everything you wanted to believe. One simple decision could alter your entire future.
My entire world.
I would forever remember this moment for the rest of my life. This is the moment that changed everything. This is the moment where I took another direction, another road that led me to my own demise. My own regrets. I should have walked in there. I should have apologized. I should have begged for her forgiveness. I should have promised that I would never hurt her again. I should have done whatever it took to make her look at me the way she had our entire lives.
But I didn’t…
I did none of those things…
Nothing was said between us.
I was a coward and couldn’t do it. I couldn’t see her like that. I couldn’t look into her eyes and know that I had hurt her. That I had disappointed her. That I ruined her love and lost her respect for me. The boy who promised he would never hurt her.
The boy who swore he would always protect her.
The boy who vowed he would never let anything happen to her.
That same boy was me.
I was the reason she was bawling.
I was the reason she was hurt.
I was the reason she was broken.
She knew the truth. It had finally caught up to me… I shattered her illusion that I was hers. I ruined the one good thing I had in my life. The girl that owned my heart was bleeding out for me in a way that I had never seen before. The house was no longer our safe place.
I had brought my hurricane with me…
I couldn’t risk the possibility of losing her permanently if I walked in there and admitted my truths. She wouldn’t love me anymore, she wouldn’t look at me the same anymore, and she wouldn’t be mine anymore.
My brown eyed girl.
The girl that I had loved all of my life.
The same girl that I would love for the rest of my life.
I gave her the only comfort I could in her moment of despair. I turned around and left. I walked down the stairs and got into my truck. I turned the engine on and drove my sorry ass home. I took a shower and never once looked at myself in the mirror. I pretended that nothing changed. That I didn’t cause her pain, and that she didn’t know the truth. That I didn’t see her sobbing and that she wasn’t even bawling to begin with. That we were still just best friends, and that she was my girl and I was her boy.
My Half-Pint and her Bo.
It was better than knowing…
I ruined us.
Best Selling Author M. Robinson loves to read. She favors anything that has angst, romance, triangles, cheating, love, and of course sex! She has been reading since the Babysitters Club and R.L. Stein.
She was born in New Jersey but was raised in Tampa Fl. She is currently pursuing her Ph.D in psychology, with two years left.
She is married to an amazing man who she loves to pieces. They have two German
Shepherd mixes and a Tabby cat.